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Xams are officially over!^^
no mre late study nights/tears.
no mre emotional downpours caused by
accumulated pain/hurt.

things i wna do this holi

• manicure/pedicure
• cut my hair
• reformat/repair laptop
• lose 5kg
• watch 432 movies
• birdpark/zoo/nightsafari
• overnight outside

if any1 wna book me, pls tell me b4 hand k?
i dnt wna let my frens down.

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to grace ange twinny.
thankyou for coming to my house last wk when i was sick.

exams are coming.
like wht..2days away?

i need motivation + determination.
where can i get th equation of this formula?

TO tingy & crystal.
i knw i should've went to celeb with you your 18th birthdays.
i apologise as i wasnt feeling well.
im sorry :(
to tingys, my gfs, i wish you have a wonderful new journey in NAFA. gfs will meetup agn^^
to stal, my beloves, i wish that you study hard in NP and we grad tgt^^ outings after exams!

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someone told me " you have to move on, you can't possibly stay in the same spot forever."

someone told me " like you said, its about you, your feelings"

someone told me "you emo or move on, you blog let people read lo. and what ever it is, dont think so much ba. "

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life hasnt been easy,
not even getting a simple job.

but FTW, life still HAS TO GO ON anyways.

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im so fickle minded,
i cant make up my mind :

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3rd day stuck at home with fever.
3rd day eating fishball bee hoon.
but today grace came to chat with me :)

slacked aftr lunch
of which she ate subway
(grace acc me eat tht when i better okay? ask abang jewel along, i want my cookie! :)
and i had my 3rd consecutive day of fishball beehoon.

chitchat a lot until dinner
of which mummy cooked^^
hope grace likes my mummy's cooking!
(rmb abang last time go ankat my mummy say the soup v.v.nice x)

tag replies
(grace)
today i feel better cause got grace to accompany me :)

(stal)
unlimited messages rocks right?! teehee^^ ya i read tht particular text quite often. i linked you 2/3 days ago ? :p oops! beloves!!

(abang)
ty abang for giving adek respect on her blog :) u are abang, i do tell you my stuffs u knw tht. and curse? ohgosh i think tht is worst than scold?!

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sometimes i wonder what is left for me in this world. a cruel and unfair world, full of obstacles big and small. yeah there are happy times, but what about the sad times. why does one seem to last longer than the other? u told urself that someone has died. but what if the person hasnt even died, what if the person is still alive? wont u want to go to the ends of the earth to tell the person how much u miss that person, to hug that person and hope for some response. thats provided you manage to find the person. what if u try so hard but the person can never be found? not all hope is lost. but most likely, faith. faith in...yourself, your abilities, your strengths, your willingness to do anything you once set yourself to do. thats where you start to see what is left for you, it is your friends. friends help you to pick up courage, give you moral. yeah sometimes it works but sometimes it doesnt even nudge. but think about it, your friends dont even want to see u so de-moralised, dont u want to show to them that you can be someting better than an emo kid? mayb its hard to keep trying or hoping but u shdnt stop cause someday your dreams/wishes may come true.

think twice,
act wise,
dont act when you're angry nor in a hurry,
take time to realise the consequences of an action.
even if u chose a wrong path,
its nvr too late.

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(abang)
cj times were fun aiyes. miss the old JE whr cn play pool! secrets ppl keep but promises ppl wil break? i nvr thought that by keeping a secret, the person is special man.. emo nt bad but also nt good. the main reason i think why i emo like this is cuz i was coming down with fever...38.3 degrees ehs. ya i really felt machiam lifeless, almost dead. cruel and realistic world = more emoing days?! wah u personal attack at ph :|

(ph)
yeah nth wrong wif askin me to blog :) wah siao ps3 i also v.long nvr play alrdy...

(xianmei)
this blogskin v.simple right? :]

(dearie)
dno if i did the right thing, cuz by blogging out, people may start to think that i such an emo kia...and tht i cnt move on in life? wht u say cn cheer me up for that moment, which does help me to get by the day a little easier. wanna sing MichelJackson's song to me uhs(u r nt alone)? :]

(zhennie)
u also wnna sing song with liting to me? :p im nt upset, im guess im merely dissappointed with myself and my life. sms unlimited right? :]

(abang)
no vulgar on my blog pls :(

(olsen)
u live v.far frm me eh :x i need stress environment then i cn start studying one :/ but thanks for offering to study wif me :)

(joachim)
i imagine the sound of music, v.cute. how to become a nun arhs?

(ph)
eeyer no vulgar!

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ph told me to blog hw i felt.
ph, im taking ur advice.

its been so long and i cnt believe that its only 3months. the feeling sucks. now im here havng the most damn shitsianxxxxz headache and all i cn do is complain. i cnt even get myself to start studying. i hate this feeling ttm. i've been wasting my time THIS WHOLE WEEK. not sure what i should be doing anymore. used to be motivated by someone, to knw that i can go out meet that person after studying was like pure motivation. but now i've NOTHING to look forward to. imma useless person. Im so afraid of being left alone. the fear is just like being threatened to go either go commit suicide or to go kill someone. fugging feeling just sucks like fag. damnitdamnit. why am i being such a whiner i also dno. people who care about me, im sry if i hurt you as im saying this. i feel like a lonely idiot. thats it. no matter what i do, when im out wif someone im totally okay, happy and all. But when i get home. i just feel like a loner. home is sweet, yes, but i just wished i had someone to hug me so tight that the person dont wna let me go, to tell me how special i am, to go star gazing with me and kiss me goodnight. maybe i'm just asking the impossible. i feel that even God is here for me, i still want more, its never enough. maybe God forgot about me. especially when i lie awake at night and sob. call me emo, i dont care. numbing myself is what i can think about. for a long time, and maybe forever. opening my options. people said im crazy when i mention becoming a nun. i just lost the feeling of wanting someone or something so badly that i'll do anything to get it. i gave up, told God to take my life. no one knows, not even my closest. i dont like to be a burden, i dont want to keep telling people that im sad or im thinking about some stuffs,I DONT LIKE TO. but truly it hurts to keep it all inside. it hurts. B knows how im feeling after talking last night until 330am. but i B cnt be there for me physically. Grace has been a great friend, sometimes i ask God why didwe have to meet the way we did. gfs i knw we are stil a grp but are we really close anymore? twinny miss me i knw but she just too busy. dearie studies to far away. lunch with stalpelzhennie was great, i felt happy not having to eat by myself bot having to spend nationalday alone. ange has been accompanying me to all church activities, i thank God for that. wenrong i miss her, the old times at CJ, i wished i could turn bk the clock. abang jewel x quan i cnt believe tht cj times felt like so long ago. i wna stop tears frm flowing but its just so hard. why was i born

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afternoon go bugis chill at starbucks,
walk to esplanade there de makansutra eat dinner ,
drink coconut watch fireworks,
train back to zhenbei house overnight,
chat into the wee hours of the morning,
morning breakfast at yakun before heading home.

all summarised :)
the whole entire time = laugh non stop ^^
pics are all in facebk :D
[hv 2 folders, mine & zhennie]

really love beloves!.
nxt overnight ishhhh UHEM :D
waiting for dearie wors!
dnt 4gt christmasss :D

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There was an angel,
who wanted to become God.
this angel, no longer was an angel to God.
its name is Lucifer, the fallen angel.

He used a weapon to pull people down,
his weapon was a tool,
a very pwerful tool which many disliked.
it was very worn out
but still very powerful.

His tool was - discouragement.
discouragement from dissappointments, hardships and difficulties.

sometimes you dont feel appreciated,
you will wna quit,
saying "Take my life Lord,"
the person means that he/she has given up,
allowed discouragement to hurt him/her,
and ignored Jesus' love for them.

a word of encouragement from me:


but the best encouragement is from God.
Jesus' body is the Eucharist,
the body of Christ Jesus is taken to strengthen us
in our life to live and
to prevent us from all discouragements.
only it has the power to overcome discouragement.

so,
Trust in the Lord,
walk by faith and not by sight.

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psst; my new blogskin nice?

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Please read all the way to the bottom:

If you will take the time to read these,
I promise you'll come away with an enlightened perspective.

The subjects covered affect us all on a daily basis:

They're written by Andy Rooney,
a man who has the gift of saying so much with so few words.

Enjoy.......

I've learned.... That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I've learned.... That when you're in love, it shows.

I've learned..... That just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day!' makes my day..

I've learned.... That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world..

I've learned.... That being kind is more important than being right.

I've learned.... That you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I've learned.... That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.

I've learned.... That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with..

I've learned.... That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I've learned.... That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

I've learned.... That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I've learned.... That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned.... That money doesn't buy class..

I've learned.... That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned.... That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned.... That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned.... That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I've learned.... That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I've learned.... That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned.... That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I've learned.... That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I've learned.... That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned.... That opportunities are never lost, someone will take the ones you miss.

I've learned.... That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I've learned.... That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away.

I've learned.... That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I've learned.... That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I've learned.... That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.

I've learned.... That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned.... That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

To all of you.... Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.

It iswas National Friendship Week.
Show your friends how much you care.
Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND,
even if it means sending it back to the person who sent it to you.
If it comes back to you,
then you'll know you have a circle of friends.

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP WEEK TO YOU!!!!!!
YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I AM HONORED!
Now sendshow this to every friend you have!!
And to your family.
This was sent to me by a friend(abang), his name is Lim Pei Guan :]

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i needa cuttrim my hair!
the splitz are terrible...
imagine 1 strand split into 5 ???!

and the nausea-ness keeps coming back.
tired-ness is all i feel these past 2 days.
:'(
i need to do so much things.
i want to finish them.
but
i wish to slp to push the headache away.

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Ange & me recorded ourselves singing Jasmine's parts :p
she dno go show JB.
WALAU~

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The Journey to God seems easy at times when you're so weak and he's so strong. But sometimes its when you're so weak tht you dont even haf the energy to walk towards him, to fight nor persevere. To stray away from God is damn easy luh, just sin a little when you don't realise and you're on your way towards the devil.

sunday after mass went meeting with Gilbert.
Isaac lead the meeting.
jiayous u Coordinator with God,
nothing is impossible :)

after tht was hanging out with isaac & andrew.
drank JavaCHIP :D
whoohoo~
StarBucks is LOVED.

headed to SAFRA,and
i tried to play L4D :)
damnit,
within 5 mins of the game i startd perspiring?!
10mins and giddy alrd..
tahan 15mins then nausea~

wantd to PAUSE bt cnt luh.
andrew told me to just stop playing lor.
paid $1 for half hr and chionged to toilet to puke.

damn sad the chocochip frm Stars seemd to wna come out.
cudnt put myself to do it.

headed to Pioneer find Ange for early dinner.
Ange you have been a great shoulder to lean on.
I thank the Lord for showing us to each other in this life.
i pray we grow in faith always.
on the long walk there,
Isaac said
"Nowadays the girls are dressing so... ...
walk around town a while.
Can head straight for confession already."

mummy laughed when i told her this joke:p
nt sure if u read le will 明白the joke anot.

ANDANDAND.

God, i pray for jewel & abang.
probatn as jewel said. i believe they learnt their lesson alrd.
they are really great friends.
only happened to be at wrong place at wrong time.
Grace prays with me also.
both of us worries.
When 2 or more are gathered in God's name, he is present.

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darling,
to me,
though i still see u,
in my heart,
the u tht i know,
the u tht i loved,
the u tht cared abt me and everything,
has died.
i'll miss u,
u who in the past i could hug,
u who in the past i could lean on,
the one who i could rely on.
all the bittersweet memories,
i'll keep it in my heart
and because (to me) you died,
i can never forget you.
the tears i shed because of your departure,
is to show how much i treasured you while u were alive.

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分手还可以快乐。
you nvr treasured me.
hurt as i am,
someone else will takecare of me.
its not up to me to decide my future,
its up to God.
-thanks grace.

HARRYPOTTER.
with mummy & lil bro ^^
i like :)
so sad the head died :(
hermoine is so pretty pls~
cnt wait for nxt HP movie :D

NEWs?
1)Josh Duhamel's Wife Fergie claims she's bisexual!
2)Channing Tatum and his STEP-UP co star JennaDewan ties the knot, same place as...
3)Fernando Torres frm Liverpool is just damn 帅 can..?
go read up who's who :)

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i dont knw whts wrong with me.
i really wna just stay in bed all day,
nth i do will bring me bk to ... you.

dreams.
thts the time i feel loved.

when i wake up,
its all just a dream.

cnt concentrate on anythg.
why.
wht did i do wrong.
or is it just fate.

sometimes i cry when no one sees me.
into the pillow my screams are contained.
heartaches, shivers,
pain just consume me.
who am i to go to?

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I’m sending this to let you know
I think of you each day,
And pray for your recovery,
Hoping soon you’ll be okay.

You’re going through a lot right now;
You’re treatments can be trying;
Remember while you do them
It’s your problem you’re defying.

Hold on to your positive attitude,
And when things get hard to bear,
Know that I am here for you;
Remember that I care.

And when you’re well and flourishing,
Look back and realize,
You learned what you were made of;
That’s a reward that satisfies!

I believe in you;
You can do it!
Get well soon.

By Joanna Fuchs

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was expecting esther & simon to come also
but...
its okay.

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click here if image dnt move

mirror image below :]

had a simple fun time wid gracie!
nxt sat okiies :D
HP movie!

am online havg conver wid TWINNY!

act hot oni :p
teehee~

Dear God,
the lady readng this paragraph is
Beautiful,
Classy & Strong,
&
I love HER.
Help her to live her life
to the fullest,
protect her
when she needs you the most &
let her know that
when she walks with you,
she will always be safe.
-a chain sms w/ v.meangful words.

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dearest ,
thank you for praying for us,
for crying with me,
lending me your shoulder,
giving me hugs of ♥.

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be wise(cunning) like a serpent,
to realise there are dangers(devils) around you.
be kind(harmless) like a dove.
to do good(angelic) deeds.

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In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tribulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.

watching the procession of MJ's memorial.
tears of memories & sadness & regrets
fill up the eyes of everyone.

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A bear, a lion and a pig meet.
Bear says: "if I roar in the forest, the entire forest is shivering with fear."
Lion says: "if I roar in the jungle, the entire jungle is afraid of me."
Pig says: "big deal.... I only have to cough, and the entire planet lives in fear."

i think tht it was funny :D

lessons tday passed in a whiz.

estC din go sch :(
tagged along with flo ruth zy syl ^^

din get to see yj :(
met up with gracie ^^

din eat dinner :(
munched with abang ^^

jp so cold din bring cardigan :(
the fun i had with grace was heartwarming ^^

fringe tday so back due to rain :(
bumped into rong'er[who i rlly miss] & other friends i havnt seen in a long while ^^

choinging EBA, HRM, I&E project :(
so tired but like FINALLY i think i cn slp ^^

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nothing can ever replace that empty space you left in my heart,
because no one is replaceable.
but i must slowly patch that hole up
with my own love,
and the people around me are there to help me patch that hole up,
with their little pieces of love,
to make it as complete as possible.
happiness is choice.
trust is also a choice.
trust myself to believe in myself and be happy.

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wed
i caught IceAge3 with Yujia EstC. Sim
at Cathay
and the show was hilarious! i just love the 3 baby dinos
and peaches is rather cute with her BUGSY eyes :p


thurs
i caught Transformers with Yujia Ink
at ViVo
and the show kept me on the edge of my seat man.
i was reeled into the world of autobots
and heart racing with captain lennox :x
nowonder he is married to fergalicious :p

fri
played a game of I'M THE BOSS,
vocally exhausting though :p,
at NP library
with EstC Yujia Sim Desmond HupSong
before we parted ways.
yujia accompanied me(TY !)
to wait for Ange
and headed for Amplify ^^
miss them loads~

P&W really touched bri & me.
Marion textd : Journey together oki both of you :-)

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as promised to you,
here is what i wanted to share at Fr.Michal's homily after the Gospel readings...

There are times in Life where we could stop and
think of how we should handle the situation,
think of how we should present ourselves to others,
think of how the consequences would be if we chose the 1st as compared to the 2nd.
a little paragraph of Versus might help you along the way :)

Hate vs L♥ve
Revenge vs Forgiveness
Greed vs Sharing of my time, gifts and resources
Jugdement vs Understanding
Backstabbing vs Openness
Gossip vs Dialogue

we can choose to do one or the other.
the choice is yours- to heaven or to hell?

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My church is going to have to change out spiritual director. why? its because Fr Michal has to return to Poland. I will miss him so much. I bet everyone will.

When he stepped into St Francis of Assis's youth scene, we were so minor. as in small. my previous ministry just closed down just before he joined in. twinny's first meeting with Fr Michal was at StandardChartered when he was raising funds for a boy named Matthew who was ill. Fr Michal persevered at Adidas Sundown marathon even though he had injured his right knee years ago.

His homily last night really reached into my heart. am going to email him to ask for the phrases he mentioned, i wna share with my readers. come back to read okay? i promise you wont be disspointed.

headed to church today after running behind the AYG torch @ JP, had a final blessing from Fr Michal. He wishes to see SFA's Youth Scene to continue to grow, using the newsletter done by Media ministry, Drama & Music ministry to aid each other as well.

Fr Michal reached out his arms to me today, my first and last hug, which made me almost want to cry because I really look up to him. the hug was really heartfelt and warming.

"Its not about the numbers" Fr Michal said to Joachim, emphasizing it many times to us. God, I pray that Fr Michal has a safe journey to Poland, Australia and Rome.

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past few days have been out.

tue - Singapore Flyer with MusicMinistry.
tue night - T3 bible studies at church followed by prayer
(initiated by isaac with beverly).
wed afternoon - mummy bro me visit 姑姑's hse .
wed night- Overnight with Beloves at zhennie's hse.
thurs afternn- breakfast at Yakun b4
badminton with Beloves (including dearieb.liting's alvin).
thurs evening- shopping with g.angel

these events that took place,
are with the best people present in my lives now.
God, Jesus, HolySpirit,
bless my closests with all the showers of PEACE LOVE JOY & HOPE.
because through hardships, pain and sufferings,
there awaits happiness.

tears stream dwn my face when i hear this song.
I'm really lucky to be where I am now,
cause God loves me.
make me an instrument of yours, Lord =)

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What the Holy Spirit does?
for those who are struggling,
the HolySpirit helps them to be saints.

I am not a saint.
BUT
I will try to be the best i can be.

Quote "Life is nothing if you dont breathe Love."

With God,
I will learn to
love my family,
love the church and
love my friends around me even more,
to want no enemies and
love strangers as God has loved me;
and to help those who are in need of help,
a listening ear,
a shoulder to lean on
or a hug.

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here in my room with marilou.
updating each othr what we've been doing & how we're coping.
emotions pile up and there goes raindrops.
how could this happen to me?
am i made by mistakes?
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

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38.Love is how much we give of ourselves, especially our time

The passages below are taken from the book “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. It was published in 2002.

Life is all about ♥.

Because God is ♥, the most important lesson he wants you to learn on earth is how to ♥. It is in loving that we are most like him, so ♥ is the foundation of every command he has given us: “The whole Law can be summed up in this one command: ‘Love others as you love yourself’ ”1

Learning to ♥ unselfishly is not an easy task. It runs counter to our self-centered nature. That’s why we’re given a lifetime to learn it. Of course, God wants us to ♥ everyone, but he is particularly concerned that we learn to ♥ others in his family. As we’ve already seen, this is the second purpose for your life. Peter tells us, “Show special love for God’s people.”2 Paul echoes this sentiment: “When we have the opportunity to help anyone, we should do it. But we should give special attention to those who are in the family of believers.”3

Why does God insist that we give special ♥ and attention to other believers? Why do they get priority in loving? Because God wants his family to be known for its ♥ more than anything else. Jesus said our ♥ for each other---not our doctrinal beliefs---is our greatest witness to the world. He said, “Your strong love for each other will prove to the world that you are my disciples.”4

In heaven we will enjoy God’s family forever, but first we have some tough work to do here on earth to prepare ourselves for an eternity of loving. God trains us by giving us “family responsibilities,” and the foremost of these is to practice loving each other.

God wants you to be in regular, close fellowship with other believers so you can develop the skill of loving. ♥ cannot be learned in isolation. You have to be around people---irritating, imperfect, frustrating people. Through fellowship we learn three important truths.

THE BEST USE OF LIFE IS ♥

♥ should be your top priority, primary objective, and greatest ambition. ♥ is not a good part of your life; it’s the most important part. The Bible says, “Let love be your greatest aim.”5
It’s not enough to say, “One of the things I want in life is to be loving,” as if it’s in your top ten list. Relationships must have priority in your life above everything else. Why?

Life without ♥ is really worthless. Paul makes this point:

“No matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.”6

Often we act as if relationships are something to be squeezed into our schedule. We talk about finding time for our children or making time for people in our lives. That gives the impression that relationships are just a part of our lives along with many other tasks. But God says relationships are what life is all about.

Four of the Ten Commandments deal with our relationship to God while the other six deal with our relationships with people. But all ten are about relationships! Later, Jesus summarized what matters most to God in two statements: ♥ God and ♥ people. He said, “You must ♥ the Lord your God with all your heart. . . . This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: ‘♥ your neiqhbor as yourself.’ All the other commandments and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments.”7 After learning to ♥ God (worship), learning to ♥ others is the second purpose of your life.

Relationships, not achievements or the acquisition of things, are what matters most in life. So why do we allow our relationships to get the short end of the stick? When our schedules become overloaded, we start skimming relationally, cutting back on giving the time, energy, and attention that loving relationships require. What’s most important to God is displaced by what’s urgent.

Busyness is a great enemy of relationships. We become preoccupied with making a living, doing our work, paying bills, and accomplishing goals as if these tasks are the point of life. They are not. The point of life is learning to ♥---God and people. Life minus ♥ equals zero.

♥ will last forever. Another reason God tells us to make ♥ our top priority is that it is eternal: “These three things continue forever: faith, hope, and love. And the greatest of these is love.”8

♥ leaves a legacy. How you treated other people, not your wealth or accomplishments, is the most enduring impact you can leave on earth. As Mother Teresa said, “It’s not what you do, but how much love you put into it that matters.” ♥ is the secret of a lasting heritage.

I have been at the bedside of many people in their final moments, when they stand on the edge of eternity, and I have never heard anyone say, “Bring me my diplomas! I want to look at them one more time. Show me my awards, my medals, that gold watch I was given.” When life on earth is ending, people don’t surround themselves with objects. What we want around us is people---people we ♥ and have relationships with.

In our final moments we all realize that relationships are what life is all about. Wisdom is learning that truth sooner rather than later. Don’t wait until you’re on your deathbed to figure out that nothing matters more.

We will be evaluated on our ♥. The third reason to make learning to ♥ the goal of your life is that it is what we will be evaluated on in eternity. One of the ways God measures spiritual maturity is by the quality of your relationships. In heaven God won’t say, “Tell me about your career, your bank account, and your hobbies.” Instead he will review how you treated other people, particularly those in need.9 Jesus said the way to ♥ him is to ♥ his family and care for their practical needs: “Truly I tell you, just as you did it to one of the least of these who are members of my family, you did it to me.”10

When you transfer into eternity, you will leave everything else behind. All you’re taking with you is your character. That’s why the Bible says, “The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.”11

Knowing this, I suggest that when you wake up every morning, you kneel by your bed, or sit on the edge of it, and pray this: “God whether I get anything else done today, I want to make sure that I spend time loving you and loving other people---because that’s what life is all about. I don’t want to waste this day.” Why should God give you another day if you’re going to waste it?

THE BEST EXPRESSION OF ♥ IS TIME

The importance of things can be measured by how much time we are willing to invest in them. The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you. If you want to know a person’s priorities, just look at how they use their time.

Time is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money, but you can’t make more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you’ll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

It is not enough just to say relationships are important; we must prove it by investing time in them. Words alone are worthless. “My children, our love should not be just words and talk; it must be true love, which shows itself in action.”12 Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is “T--I--M--E.”

The essence of ♥ is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves. Men, in particular, often don’t understand this. Many have said to me, “I don’t understand my wife and kids. I provide everything they need. What more could they want?” They want you! Your eyes, your ears, your time, your attention, your presence, your focus---your time. Nothing can take the place of that.

The most desired gift of love is not diamonds or roses or chocolate. It is focused attention. ♥ concentrates so intently on another that you forget yourself at that moment. Attention says, “I value you enough to give you my most precious asset---my time.” Whenever you give your time, you are making a sacrifice, and sacrifice is the essence of ♥. Jesus modeled this: “Be full of love for others, following the example of Christ who loved you and gave Himself to God as a sacrifice to take away your sins.”13

You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving. “God so loved the world that he gave. . .”14 ♥ means giving up---yielding my preferences, comfort, goals, security, money, energy, or time for the benefit of someone else.

THE BEST TIME TO ♥ IS NOW

Sometimes procrastination is a legitimate response to a trivial task. But because ♥ is what matters most, it takes top priority. The Bible stresses this repeatedly. It says, “Whenever we have the opportunity, we should do good to everyone.”15 “Use every chance you have for doing good.”16 “Whenever you possibly can, do good to those who need it. Never tell your neighbor to wait until tomorrow if you can help them now.”17

Why is now the best time to express ♥? Because you don’t know how long you will have the opportunity. Circumstances change. People die. Children grow up. You have no guarantee of tomorrow. If you want to express ♥, you had better do it now.

Knowing that one day you will stand before God, here are some questions you need to consider: How will you explain those times when projects or things were more important to you than people? Who do you need to start spending more time with? What do you need to cut out of your schedule to make that possible? What sacrifices do you need to make?

The best use of life is ♥.
The best expression of ♥ is time.
The best time to ♥ is now.
(123-128)


Notes
1. Galatians 5:14 (LB).
2. 1 Peter 2:17b (CEV).
3. Galatians 6:10 (NCV).
4. John 13:35 (LB).
5. 1 Corinthians 14:1a (LB).
6. 1 Corinthians 13:3 (Msg).
7. Matthew 22:3740 (NLT).
8. 1 Corinthians 13:13 (NCV).
9. Matthew 25:3446.
10. Matthew 25:40 (NRSV),
11. Galatians 5:6 (NIV).
12. 1 john 3:18 (TEV).
13. Ephesians 5:2 (LB).
14. John 3:16a.
15. Galatians 6:10 (NLT).
16. Ephesians 5:16 (NCV).
17. Proverbs 3:27 (TEV).

The Bible was originally written using 11,280 Hebrew, Aramaic, and Greek words, but the typical English translation uses only around 6,000 words. Obviously, nuances and shades of meaning can be missed, so it is always helpful to compare translations.

AMP- The Amplified Bible, Grand Rapids: Zondervan (1965)
CEV- Contemporary English Version, New York: American Bible Society (1995)
GWT- God’s Word Translation, Grand Rapids: World Publishing, Inc. (1995)
KJV -King James Version
LB- Living Bible, Wheaton, II: Tyndale House Publishers (1979)
Msg- The Message, Colorado Springs: Navpress (1993)
NAB- New American Bible, Chicago: Catholic Press (1970)
NASB -New American Standard Bible, Anaheim, CA: Foundation Press (1973)
NCV- New Century Version, Dallas: Word Bibles (1991)
NIV- New International Version, Colorado Springs: International Bible Society (1978, 1984)
NJB- New Jerusalem Bible, Garden City, NY: Doubleday (1985)
NLT- New Living Translation, Wheaton, II: Tyndale House Publishers (1996)
NRSV -New Revised Standard Version, Grand Rapids: Zondervan (1990)
Ph -New Testament in Modern English by J. B. Phillips, New York: Macmillan (1958)
TEV -Today’s English Version, New York: American Bible Society (1992) (Also called Good News Translation)

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NOTE: SG FLYER is havng some sort of promotion for STUDENTS!
Only $10/- for weekday* starting 1st June to 26th June.
(*im nt sure if its only weekdays or wht…
pls go checkitout k cuz mayb there are changes :x *)

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• backstreet boys - Just want you to know
• michelle branch - goodbye to you
• lea solonga - the journey
• you are my song

her mum heard me sing Amazing Grace and said i sounded angelic.
Gracie u heard tht?
amazing GRACE ANGELic ^^
i had so much fun nor..
the spagetti is NICE, the caremel cake also.
thanks angelia for being such a nice hostest again:)
so out tgt friday alright ^^
teehee~
pics with jason :) send me k?

after which went to Suntec & Marina2 to find my family.
so thirsty after singing..


tried this drink introduced by Sherlyn.
uhmm! quite nice:D


went shopping with mummy!


tried on this top.
nice ma? :D


this one caught my eye. haha
the expression reminds me of a particular cup~
*laughs*


twinny wna get this tgt?
u rock i roll :p


wht can you make up of this ring..?

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photo of an afternoon 3-4 days ago..

photo of this afternn :)

mr ph said this photo of the day nicer :D

i guess the "sky is the limit",
but i just cant get enough of it.
teehee~

went ViVo today to meet bro ink to watch..

WOLVERINE! ^^
superb movie filled with action pack.!
their love storyline...

bitter sweet.

bitter sweet that it makes me wna drink...

STARBUCKS~
3 new flavours...
am i addicted to it?
doubt so :p
but i love it ^^

anyone be so kind to go drink starbucks with me? :/

after movie,
bused back to sch on 61,
passed by

which i havnt been to in wht seems like ages.
wonder when i'll go there agn?

bk to NP to teach ppl how to fold STARS using STRAWS :D
met meixuan, michelle & pel there^^
met a friend's friend frm Bendemeer Sec's Choir seii~

got this frm GracieAngel's blog..

一个男孩同时爱着两个女孩，他也明白，两个女孩也在心底爱着自己。然而在选择去与留时他却始终不知道该如何抉择，他不知道他更爱谁多一点。

他先向一个女孩隐约地暗示，也许他们会分别。

女孩听了，顿时泪如雨下，扑在他的怀里抽搐的身体随着哭泣声不停地颤抖：“你说过你爱我，我不能没有你。”

面对一个在自己怀里泣不成声的女孩，男孩犹豫了，于是安慰她：“傻丫头，我不会离开你的。”

当他向第二个女孩提起他和第一个女孩之间的事时，女孩低着头，没有说话。

“爱情的事别人左右不了的。”女孩留下一句话随即转身离去。从见面到女孩转身离开，男孩没有见到她伤心哭泣，甚至连一滴泪也没有。其实那一刻，如果她要他留下，他会答应的。

“也许她并不爱我。”男孩伤心地想。一个连挽留都不会的人能爱他有多深？其实，他只是没有发现女孩在转身离开时无声落下的泪。

后来，男孩选择了第一个女孩。

两年后，第二个女孩嫁给了别人。两个人过得非常幸福，因为这个男人更懂她。

提起两年前的分手，丈夫问她为什么当初不像那个女孩那样哭着请他留下。

“两个人的泪水能让他做出什么样的决定呢？明知道那只会让他更为难，我又如何忍心这么去做？”

她的丈夫终于明白，其实自己爱她的何尝不是她的这颗善良的心。

爱情在很多时候，放手的那个人并非爱的不深，往往真是因为爱的太真，才不忍让心爱的人受伤害。

真心爱一个人，不是希望他能守侯在自己的身边，而是希望所爱的人能够幸福。爱一个人不一定要真正拥有，正因为无私的爱才值得永远珍藏。

不哭，不是因为不爱你，更因为明白你.

thanks G.Angel :)

read le, felt a lot of meaning to it.
> 1 meaning.

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Maybe. . we were supposed to meet the
wrong people before meeting the right
one so that, when we finally meet the
right person, we will know how to be
grateful for that gift.

Maybe . . when the door of happiness
closes, another opens; but, often
times, we look so long at the closed
door that we don't even see the new
one which has been opened for us.

Maybe . . . it is true that we don't
know what we have until we lose it,
but it is also true that we don't know
what we have been missing until it
arrives.

Maybe . . . the happiest of people
don't necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

Maybe . . the brightest future will
always be based on a forgotten past;
after all, you can't go on
successfully in life until you let go
of your past mistakes, failures and
heartaches.

Maybe . . . you should dream what you
want to dream; go where you want to
go, be what you want to be, because
you have only one life and one chance
to do all the things you dream of, and
want to do.

Maybe . . .there are moments in life
when you miss someone -- a parent, a
spouse, a friend, a child -- so much
that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real, so
that once they are around you
appreciate them more.

Maybe . . . the best kind of friend is
the kind you can sit on a porch and
swing with, never say a word, and then
walk away feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

Maybe . . you should always try to put
yourself in others' shoes. If you feel
that something could hurt you, it
probably will hurt the other person,
too.

Maybe . . you should do something nice
for someone every single day, even if
it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe . . giving someone all your love
is never an assurance that they will
love you back. Don't expect love in
return; just wait for it to grow in
their heart; but, if it doesn't, be
content that it grew in yours.

Maybe . . . happiness waits for all
those who cry, all those who hurt, all
those who have searched, and all those
who have tried, for only they can
appreciate the importance of ll the
people who have touched their lves.

Maybe . . you shouldn't go for
looks; they can deceive; don't go for
wealth; even that fades away. Go for
someone who makes you smile, because
it takes only a smile to make a dark
day seem bright. Find the one that
makes your heart smile.

Maybe . .. you should hope for enough
happiness to make you sweet, enough
trials to make you strong, enough
sorrow to keep you human, and enough
hope to make you happy

Maybe . . . you should try to live
your life to the fullest because when
you were born, you were crying and
everyone around you was smiling but
when you die, you can be the one who
is smiling and everyone around you
crying.

Maybe . . . you could show this
to those people who mean something to
you, to those who have touched your
life, to those who can and do make you
smile when you really need it, to
those who make you see the brighter
side of things when you are really
down, and to all those whom you want
to know that you appreciate them and
their friendship.

And if you don't, don't worry; nothing
bad will happen to you. You will just
miss out on the opportunity to perhaps
brighten someone's day.

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for today,
i only hav 3 best hugs to nominate.

1. mummy
2. florence
3. dearie

mummy was the only one to hug me when i was terribly pouring. she held me even though she was upset with me. she loves me so much. this has made my relationship with my mother closer than before. my parents care so much about me. God has given me the best parents i can ever ask for. God loves me so much.

florence always gave me tight heart warming hugs. and when i felt cold n alone, she warmed my heart during lectures. she said a long and really encouraging motivating tear-vanishing prayer for me and gave me a really long hug. people who saw this was surprised. and i was really happy God gave me flo in NP to talk to me.

dearie finally met me today and yesterday, when we talked on msn, she told me she was so sad tht i was emoing. today, when she hugged me before we parted, i told her what happened recently and she started tearing..which made me cry~ dearie said tht i really mean alot to her and when she saw me so sad, she couldnt take it. i miss her so much. when we walked towards the busstop, she said " now im your 1st boyfriend le. :) " and she held my hand. on the bus home, i could almost cry when i think of dearie's words. liting, I LOVE YOU!

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people now knw a different side of someone.
their idea changes.
but behaivour towards them remains the same.
but at the same time,
they will talk behind the backs of them.

Esther, no matter wht ppl say,
you know what is the right thing to do, is of utmost importance.

friends come & go,
treasure those who are still here.
those who left you,
didnt treasure you.

Esther will not let those who belittle me,
prevent me from doing my best.

Pain and suffering are part and partial of life.
learn from your mistakes.
love your enemies as God has loved you.
there is a reason for everything, it takes time to realise.

Esther, i guess you finally awoke n realised what you've been wanting.
you lost a relationship but you gain something right?
you have grown courage from within.
your relationship with your family is now even closer.
your realise the importance of now giving up.
its TIME TO MOVE ON :)

with every fall you manage to pick yourself up,
you will be stronger.

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played Yiruma-River Flows in You.
learnt it for myself
but with the unknowing intention for you,
felt like crying but smiled instead.



smiled because no matter what the present,
sweet memories once lived.
you will be missed.

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last hug. this finally means goodbye.
thts all i ever wanted from the beginnings of "i wna meet."
actually, i dont think you're ready even for a friendship.
you told me i din giv u enough time.
meanwhile,
study alright. ur parents need u for ur future.
i wished i had your big sis.
you never knew how to treasure the things u have.
now u can. try.
no one cares about your skin, they care abt u.
i wont worry abt u, u told me not to.
smelled your cologne and my heart raced. guess it was just a natural attraction.
always loving you was all i ever thought about.
even if it means nothing to you. but still W.A.Wna kiss.
hurting someone leaves scars. fk care even if I died.
leaving someone is the hardest. :') leaving with a smile should be THE best.
forgetting you is close to impossible. so , always be here for ...
daisyd. & d.darkling will be sweet memories. i hope one day you'll be looking at this. ily baby.
building a bridge and watch it collapse. :'( let alone a rocket .
promised & expect trust. marriage at 23 was a hope.
hope you lead a fruitful life. i'll pray for God bless you always & must takecare.

"the past
doesnt exist alr."
-yes i know, thanks ZANE :D

"seeing you like this,
makes me sad."
-sry dearie, im trying to NOT be like this :')

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thanks for hurting me.

you gave me courage to tell my mother everything.

God Bless your sister and your family.

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esther says:
heartache is something i dont want to feel
i want run away frm it as fast as possible .

LIHUI says:
you wont be able to
cos it will come back to you always

esther says:
i think like
mayb 10 yrs frm now
when im more or less stable
if i meet him
i think i will be able to look at him n smile. because we were once tgt.
like this wil b a sweet memory
right?

LIHUI says:
yupp

esther says:
suddenly i feel all better.

LIHUI says:
memories is meant to be kept

esther? says:
but 10 yrs seem darn long :x

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pls reply me...
i have been awake since last night.

its tearing me apart inside.

weixian, please.

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i wished i could erase the pain away.

i am so used to having you.
i am taken away from my drug like cold turkey,
i need my drug.

i need you.

i know fate played with us,
i should've considered the consequences
but i didnt.

im sorry, i wished i could hug you.
are you reading this?

i miss you so much that you appear in my dreams.
i ..

please talk to me..im going crazy with your absence.

emptyness..
loneliness..even though there are people around me..

friends have been trying hard to cheer me up,
telling me that i should look on the bright side of life
and i'm forcing numbness unto myself.

i dont want to numb the heart that loves you.
i love you.

can i have this dance high school musical 3 -

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the hug was full of warmth.
thanks darling, thanks for being my love.
there will come a day i believe that we can be best friends again.

don't ever cry for me ... I'm not worth your tears
because you're such a wonderful boyfriend.
i thought u din treasure me
but
it was me who havent learnt to cherish you.

i promised you this,
i dont ever want to break this promise,
waw.
i hope you'll remember me always.
our moments alone.
our anniversaries.
our pictures.
our gifts.
our story.

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no, im not talking about SURVIVOR. im talking abt my hidden immunity; what about it you may ask? well, me has been rather sick lately. if u read my previous postsssss, im ill with cough, flu & headache. last night, i couldnt fall asleep. there was no reason for me to stay awake, i was dead tired but my body just wasnt feeling right. up till approx 430am i was still awake. the flu of mine is a morning signess..(or how ever u spell it). i hate my immunity that is not strong, that is not working well. i havent been able to even sing tune w/o going off pitch. im so sad... not only that, my eyes are definitely giving me a big headache. it all started when my left eye turned red...

1. the day after my left eye sore-d, there was a small pimple like thing in the middle of the bottom eyelid, i squeezed the pass out hoping that it will heal n evrythg will be fine.
2. oh no, i was wrong. over the next 3-4 days, the inner part of the upper eyelid started to swell. u knw when u wake up from slp and there is this yellowish dry thing on ur eyelashes? during those 4 days, my left eye was over-producing the yellowish thing. i tried my best not to rub it, again hoping that the swelling would subside.
3. yes it did :) arent i glad? but not for long because it didnt take v.long before my right eye started being jealous that i wasnt taking care of it and decided to act up by itself. and so the outer part of the upper eyelid swell. i was lucky this was only a 1 day swelling.
4. i have no clue why today both my eyes suddenly turned itchy, i rubbed quite a few times and TA-DA~ now the inner part of the bottom left eyelid is swollen.

im supposed to have CCA tmr. will i be better tmr? i have no idea. send my past few days staying in my room... its cool, i managed to complete my tutorials :) its also a pity, i seem to have missed 11:11 so much. daddy says if i dont get better, MrDoctor should be 1st on my priority list. but who will accompany me ?

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i am told to see the doctor, i want to but yet i dont want to. its like i need find time to go JE see doctor, i need find someone to accompany me to see the doctor. which is so troublesome and im too tired to do it. might as well just force my immunity to build up and recover? since i've got 3 days no sch. recover from

1. my swelling left eye,
2. my cough which comes and goes(when it comes, i cnt stop coughing and i would start tearing),
3. which leads to running nose,
4. my headache which also evolved from the 3 symptoms above.

someone asked me "are you having swine flu?" i touched my forehead, no fever. bought some honeysuckle drink which was super (x123456789) bitter and i could only take minute sips to help clear my throat. afterwhich KyeJie offered me some lozenges which i have NEVER seen before, warned me tht it was bitter, i sucked on it and my cough was way way better. thanks KJ =] and it wasnt even as bitter as he said, must've been the drink which altered my taste buds :p

• bring thermometer to school soon, going have some POLY checkup thingy.
• bring EZ-link to sch, going to have it changed soon with new ERP thingy.

in the afternoon, i was supposed to have lunch with yujia jerry esther but esther was late, yujia wasnt hungry, jerry ate alrd. so i thought could lunch with dar. but dar promised to gym with jasper, so i stayed at library skipping lunch..wasnt tht hungry at 12nn anyway. thenat 1pm dar suddenly called me, i was just abt to go for class, dar wanted to pass me cookies~

2 white chocolate macadamia nuts cookies :D just nice, i WAS starting to get hungry. but it also meant that: he could have told me to eat lunch with him... :( worst part, my cough worsend after i consumed one cookie, so the 2nd cookie cnt eat. kept it after vball which chel was way hungry n i offered it to her. cookie tht dar gave came in handy twice :) thanks dar for the sweet treat =]

isnt it weird that im sick yet i go for volleyball? i agree. but I MISS VOLLEY & huiying was persistent tht since we promised rebecca & informed jocelyn tht we were going vball, we shd stick to our words. i stil wasnt sure if i wantd to volley after the episode of coughs, so just thought tht mayb i could hang around wait for huiying then see how. when i met the volleyballers, i realised how much I MISS THEM. now they're all so bonded, i felt like an outsider. huiying and i felt tht way~ the times they shared with each other, both of us can never get. the moments they had fun with each other, both of us missed. huiying n i only wished we would be back with them as 1 again.

but one special thing huiying & i shared is the trip to Bintan and meeting iDare-mates. this kinda seperates BA from the other schools [which was what huiying and i was talking about on the way to the bus-stop when only the 2 of us were walking (which in the past had rebecca, jasmine and dephenie. )] BA itself has so many activities to join/partake in, it keeps our timetable packed already. how to commit to so many things? plus projects, homeworks, printing, meetings...the list alone steals all my energy. im so beat after vball, i couldnt join for dinner with them. they're going sentosa toms, i wna go..but im sure i cnt wake up. boohoos to me~

daddy says no swimming, related to swine flu? i think so. boohoos to me agn~

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esther chew designed her nails really nice eh! i kept my nails long so that someone would ask me to go manicure of smthg of that sort. but no one did. ended up, several of my nails broke, i just trimmed them. now with short nails, im prepared to go volley tomorrow! im only afraid i'll play like a terrible player. i havent touched it in ages... what seemed like 1 yr but its actually about 4 months..thereabouts. i wonder what tomorrow's trng will be like? i rmb leading the warmups once. felt like total sotong bcuz i knew i was nvr going to be in commitee for vball club. mayb they saw potential? but i doubt the potential will ever turn into real skills. i'll just give it a try :D

today, at class we meet our advisor :) she didnt even introduce herself! all i knw she likes to watch channel newsasia and some hk/korean drama series. &&& i volunteerd to be the module rep. why ah? i oso dno why :/ assigned some of them to do tutorial qns le. only like jonathan that grp did not get to talk to them. i hope this class will be a fun class. i miss my 1st class(TB26) so much! Flo Zy Ruth (Syl) Maycee Simon Jerlyn Wirda Jeff TzeYang. the rest of TB26 is now in my TB21 class :) today is like sick day?

ZeXuan & YuXiang both looked quite tired today, yujia & me had bad cough also. but we din rlly care, we still shared drinks together :x HAHA. this semester, with esther n yujia to accompany me, i think i'll not be feeling solo-ed out anymore :D

i want help them both not have bad habits anymore :D
yujia to do homework n esther not to oversleep.

sidetrack

there is this 1 malay song that i like v.much~ noredeen even helped me write the lyrics & translate for me the meaning to english during O'lvls :p i dont knw if anyone knows abt this song; esp the chinese. but jus wna share it wif ya!

me am thinking of going s'pore idol. anyone i knw wna go with me? i read from someone's blog tht auditions are in june. im interested but afraid to go alone. twinny? darling? gfs? beloves? choir? musicministry? volleyball? anyone at all?

Labels: NP, singing, vball

wah! LY tricked me with a lil rhyme thingy then slapped me by surprise, Huiying YokeTeng Lynn LY tricked me again and slapped me in the end. if that wasnt enough, LY made anthr funny games those kind then slapped me AGAIN! 3 times kena slapped for no goodarnit reason :/ but oh well, iDare family ppl v.daring one :p

AND my name has becomed X-ster xD WHY? All thanks to EBA tutor Mr.Choo luh, his pronunciation needs a lil help :p andandand IOAP is to ShangHai! 6 weeks sia. both x-sters' wna go as a pair to stay in ehs! $1800 buck excluding meals & shopping. will daddy allow? i think gt subsidies cn deduct some...

after school, met my lil auntie (who is younger than me) for dinner at makanplace! it is miss marianne :D if you're reading this, i wna say tht we should meet up more often! its fun to talk to you and the fact tht we're related by blood, i feel all the more closer to you automatically alrd =]

then lil miss marianne had to go class at SIM, so off to JE meet abang jewel clara then to JP meet dar :D they had dinner there, i treat drinks (why i so nice? read on ^^) then headed to dar's hse to catch last episode of 乒乓员(PingPangYuan) ! ending a lil dissapointing. In the midst of the show, dar went to buy picco:

for me :) sweet hor? i shared chocolate there, will eat strawberry at lecture toms :p then headed home le. i want to tell abang(bigbro in malay) peiguan a BIG THANKYOU for keeping to your words and accompanying me wait for 333. girls, u know how its like when guys regard something else (eg. gaming/sports) more important than you? the feeling isnt nice right? sometimes it even sucks right? my abang, though felt the importance of the DOTA game which weixian&friends were waiting for him, did not leave me alone to wait for 333 ! could see he wanted to run home play le but true abang stayed =] teehee~ abang, hope u find a nice gf soon! *winks*

why did i treat them drinks.. because today i got my birthday present from them. its something on my wishingwell, its something i absolutely never think i'll ever get. its pink, really pretty, quite expensive, has been advertised with a gorgeous supermodel pic, has a ribbon with it, and just beautiful, last hint. it has nice smell :D

guess!
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ohmy天, when i saw this, i was absolutely like..no way man. but i acted like nothing lidat, i see see, turn the box around and placed it back into the bag. i bet clara must be thinking im such a spoilt girl. told mummy about this and she couldnt believe it...thinking about it, i've only known CJ gang for ..17-18months? this friendship is really different in so many ways yet the same. dno if anyone gets my meaning. thanks abang, jewel, dar for this 18th bdae gift. its really (x123456789) sweet :D

twinny, u wantd to see how the rubber stretched? super sad ):
cottonon materials isnt as bad as they say, is it?

Labels: birthday, darling❤, family, iDare, NP

in my wishinbgwell, i wanted to do some thing(s) new. I did :D im proud of myself for doing so. even though few compliments or critism were told to me, im glad i did. this new thing i tried is in the month of april, im waiting for may to come so that i can try other NEW thing too :D these are what new things i've tried :

• i sang at my church's choir
• solo-ist for responserial psalm
• solo for gospel acclaimation
• joined photography club for real
• signed up for D3 [ dance (x3) ]
• took the first step to introduce myself to a new classmate
• sold 2 year1 books

admist all these new things i tried, i earned a sore throat, red eye & tummy upset. i need to inculcate a proper diet with proper exercises and proper sleeping timings. maybe its time i stop all those nonsense; nonsense; nonsense. darn it, i keep saying "nonsense" for so many non-related things. i'd rather myself say "lame" or something more common. ironic arent i? im theoriginalesther but i'm wna be common. deng -.-''

should i go back to volley? its like my 2nd favourite sport; because first is swimming; but my right-wrist still acts up at times. Rachel askd me to go with her toms, HuiYing askd me to go with her on thursday.. i rlly miss vball. i had so much fun in my first year but the rest who has been going back has been having so much bonding and im not bonded. neither covalent nor ionic bond.

i dont want to be the last "senior" that is left out & cant volley ):

sebastian sitoh said that there's this ADIDAS SUNDOWN MARATHON 2009;
who is going? i wna go :D only NP? i think jas n gang going :) i signed up but dno wil get in nt :/ *fingers crossed*

add ons:
wasnt sure wht to wear on the day to sing at church.

this looked the best formal attire i could find on a WARM day :p

me rlly excited in the morning~

lil bro video-ed it by it wasnt clear
and i also paiseh to put here let others hear,
incase some ppl say i show off.
i only want to share how happy i am to serve the Lord :D
im so delighted! ^^

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thts wht ppl say.
if only i knew what my heart really needed.
天生我才必有用。
if only i knew what my usefulness is.
Everything Has A Reason.
if only i knew the reasons for things happening.

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im going to post 3 videos tht i wna share.



this 1st video is of a boy who joined the contest Britains' got talent.
underdog :D




this 2nd vid is Libera sining a popular song " I have a Dream"
of which Westlife brought to hits.



this 3rd vid is a MUST WATCH LISTEN.
take some time to load the whole vid
before you enter a world of angel voices...

hear the boy who is doing the background whaling.

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Esther – Angela:
any whr to get new songs?

Esther-HS:
secretly envy? Haha!! All the men shld knw cool hor?

Esther-Zhennie:
Edward Cullen hor? =p

Esther-CuiWen:
yeps the jiajun in pingpong
IS more shuaii la~
linkd ya wenwen (:

Esther-HS:
choir maintained a
bronze award (:

Esther-Angela:
who is your fren?
I say HI back too
(:

Esther-HS:
Hehe,you tagged me then u go click on my nuffnagg? :S

Esther-LiTing:
yes we met up din we? ^^
I enjoyed my birthday celebration :D

Esther-Rachel:
you’re 1st to leave a HB footprint (:
TY chel gf [=

Esther-HS:
you keep calling me OB one~
haha!
You were 1st to call me tell me HB (:

Esther-Angela:
thank you seowting!
I stil kept the card you and sherie made for one of my previous birthday (:

Esther-Alicia:
aww~ I missed you ali ! thanks fer the wish (:

Esther-XianMei:
yeps! You wished me HB via msg le(:
TY for wishing
me here agn [=

Esther-ZhenBei:
18th club have wht privileges ah? Xp

Esther-Aisyah:
I didn’t expect you to remember!
Thank You for wishing me!
I miss aisyah~

Esther-Liting:
me loved my birthday too
:D it ended quite fast din it?
Thts wht I felt :x

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my juniors :)
seems happy to be going to SYF^^

we look funny~

rockers wannabe .\n/

our fish & chips @ BillyBombers,
MarinaSquare.

1st customers eh~

Frolick Yoghurt.
so nice, we ate even the last drop :p

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Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighboring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch offered him his freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death

The question?
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What do women really want?

Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end.

He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess, the priests, the wise men and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer.

Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer.

But the price would be high; as the witch was famous throughout the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.

The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no choice but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but he would have to agree to her price first.

The old witch wanted to marry Sir Lancelot, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's closest friend!

Young Arthur was horrified. She was hunchbacked and hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc. He had never encountered such a repugnant creature in all his life.

He refused to force his friend to marry her and endure such a terrible burden; but Lancelot, learning of the proposal, spoke with Arthur.

He said nothing was too big of a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the preservation of the Round Table.

Hence, a wedding was proclaimed and the witch answered Arthur's question thus:

What a woman really wants, she answered....is to be in charge of her own life.

Everyone in the kingdom instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared.

And so it was, the neighboring monarch granted Arthur his freedom and Lancelot and the witch had a wonderful wedding.

The honeymoon hour approached and Lancelot, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom. But, what a sight awaited him. The most beautiful woman he had ever seen lay before him on the bed.. The astounded Lancelot asked what had happened

The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when she appeared as a witch, she would henceforth, be her horrible deformed self only half the time and the beautiful maiden the other half.

Which would he prefer? Beautiful during the day....or night?

Lancelot pondered the predicament. During the day, a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his castle, an old witch? Or, would he prefer having a hideous witch during the day, but by night, a beautiful woman for him to enjoy wondrous intimate moments?

What would YOU do?
What Lancelot chose is below.

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Noble Lancelot said that he would allow HER to make the choice herself.

Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time because he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life.

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The moral is.....
If you don't let a woman have her own way....
Things are going to get ugly;

in other words,

If you let a woman have her own way....
Things will turn out quite pretty :)

In view of International Women's Day, 8th March.


Women love to shop. It is the one area of the world where they feel like they're actually in control.

Women never have anything to wear. Don't question the racks of clothes in the closet; you "just don't understand".

Women can't keep secrets. They eat away at them from the inside. And they don't view it as being untrustworthy, providing they only tell two or three people.

Women always go to public restrooms in groups. It gives them a chance to gossip.

If a man goes on a seven-day trip, he'll pack five days worth of clothes and will wear some things twice; if a woman goes on a seven-day trip she'll pack 21 outfits because she doesn't know what she'll feel like wearing each day.

Women love to talk on the phone. A woman can visit her girlfriend for two weeks, and upon returning home, she will call the same friend and they will talk for three hours.

If it is not Valentines day and you see a man in a flower shop, you can probably start up a conversation by asking, "What did you do?"

It's okay for women to dance with each other and not be gay, You don't see straight men dancing together.

Women will spend hours dressing up to go out, and then they'll go out and spend more time checking out other women. Men can never catch women checking out other men; women will always catch men checking out other women.

The most embarrassing thing for women is to find another woman wearing the same dress at a formal party. You don't hear men say, "Oh-my-GOD, there's another man wearing a black tux, get me outta here!"

Women hate bugs. Even the strong-willed ones need a man around when there's a spider or a wasp involved.

Women especially love a bargain. The question of "need" is irrelevant, so don't bother pointing it out. Anything on sale is fair game.

"Men always want to please women, but these last 15 years, women have been hard to please. If you want to resist the feminist movement, the simple way to do it is to give them what they want and they'll defeat themselves. Today, you've got endless women in their 20s and 30s who don't know if they want to be a mother, have lunch, or be secretary of state."
- actor Jack Nicholson

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thats what i helped my mother cook for dinner :)
i fried the eggs with tomatoes & sausages eh~
i think its not bad for a non-frequent cook like me :x

i wantd dar to eat dinner with me at 7pm,
he told me he could only reach at 8pm;
i was too hungry i din wait.
i felt guilty at 1st;
then end up dar came at a late 9pm.

just in time to catch the pingpong show :/
oh wells,
we both enjoy that show lei :)

Labels: cooking, darling❤, twinny

I received my First 18th Birthday Present ^^
thankiew so muachee gracie :)
i cnt wait to open it on my bdae :x

today;
i missd the opportunity to go IceSkatng with iDare..
& to celebrate Irene&Xavier's birthdays..
cuz no money...
wht did i spend me last cash on?


a haircut.
that Zhennie accompanied me to;
a haircut
of which i do like :D

you know the sayng
"change is good =] "
haha.

but im stil getting used to it...
and no go kallang is also bcuz
i went to find dar at 8 am in the morning.


main reason why i go find him at his house this early;
with no complains;
is that dar's eye became swollen.
and i wantd to be there for dar :)


went so early,
we finally cud eat breakfast tgt :)

he treat me meals the whole day today :D
♥ thanks for helping me nt spend a single penny today dar +)
for lunch i had charshaosiew; redbeanpastry; tousapia.


i know dar is delightd that i went to find him today.
right dar?
i can see the gleam in his swolln eyes :x
♥ recover soon d.darkling, me heartache see ur eyes...

i stayd for dinner:
Springy Chicken :D
yumyum!
and had choco HL milk :)
after which was the 9pm channel8 PingPong show!!
i like Ah Wu~
and the Terminator lady :p
you shd try to catch the series, i think its seemingly funny :)

headd home straight after the tv show.

whilst waiting for 333;
i saw this really sweet leave :x
anthr one of my ♥ shaped findings :D

i might meet ♥twinny tmr :)
im so excited!!

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this quiz that twinny postd on her blog:
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

i was super temptd to try as hers was quite accurate.
these are my results;
i think its super true seii~

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education :

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

there are mny other quizes available for you to learn more abt yourself.
these are HELPFUL :)
not just to pass time like facebk :p

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yayness^^
me life this drink loads :D

i think my readers who are bored shd go try this out too =D
no kidding.
the results are fun :]

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then the adidas shoe... 70% offer eh~
so nice but its like stil exp... $33.90 ):
its red like pumps. best part, it has MY size!
the promotion was either at Wisma or Tangs.
cnt find its pic yet.

SAT

supposed to have breakfast at NGP.
but i cudnt wake up,

so lunchd at Mc.
tried the spicy wrap.
HOT!

then go dar hse,
we play Jenga!
who was to go next was determined by
1)spi-spi-spi game
2)0-5-10-15-20 game

took turns to snap video of the game,
din knw when it would fall :p
i think i have better photography skills than dar :/
fast forward to 4:05mins and turn up the volume slightly.
*laughs*
note: background music is dar's sister playing the piano :)

after the loser kept the game :p ,
i surfd the net
and as usual, dar sleeps.
had dinner at Kopitiam,
headed home early cuz tmr hav Church.
pics b4 leaving:

dar BUGSY eyes :p
so funny i couldnt help but laugh :D


lol :D


me know i am loved :)

*comebk to view updatd version of this post alright? (:

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whilst doing such,
lou & i headd to St Marys for Confession.
1st one this year ; preparation for Lent.
Felt muchmuch better after tht.
there was this Wang lady who was super keen to chat with us,
tellng us her life and asking about ours.
she's a really friendly lady,
maybe a lil over friendly?
cuz she leand really closely to lou and me
when she was talking to us.
she even touched our tighs.
but i figurd she's just complimenting us.
AND im impressed by her courage to be the only convert to catholic
in her family.
i think God was telling lou & i to nt be afraid; to go out
and do something tht we think is right.
she was God's instrument.
i love GOD!

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I stuffed several different sweets into
this Potato&Egg prata thingy
and made him eat it.
hehe=p
i thought it was funny.
so
did they.
dar did find a marshmellow inside..
dno if he found the other
sweets yet not =p

Labels: beloves, church, darling❤, movie, twinny, wishingwell, yanyan

Twinny, i want you to know that you are not alone,
no matter how many
troubles you have to face,
how many pressing assignments,
how many
people make you feel so terrible about yourself,
WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER,
AS TWINNYS.

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i waw you!
willmiss,alwayslove,wannakiss.
thats a promise im making.
will pinkyfinger with you when we meet.

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iDARE Mar'09 is totally awesome-est la!

Day1:
Ice-breakers
Geo-catching with GPS
Night trekking

Day2:
Morning trekking
Rafting
Camp preparation

Day3:
High elements
Low elements
Paintball
The Challenge Pyramid
Campfire
Night-life (Dare or Dare game)

Day4:
beach activities
JETSKI (best sports ever!)
Lunch buffet
Home sweet home in the night

This is just a brief outline of what we did.
like i mentiond b4,
im waiting for pictures..
yoketeng too!

but i heard frm amanda tht they take longlong time to send to us eh ):

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i officially bk frm bintan(:
whoots!

miss Sg a lot.
bintan is nt as nice as sg u knw.?
aircon there so little..even a simple bus journey can b a suane bathe.

and the food there was like..
nt as nice too.

i wnt be bloggng the events tht occurd today..
too mny to say & no pics say nt nice.

so am gona wait 4 tha pics then blog(:
i rlly had a super-dee-duper awesome time there.
ltr gona meet my team for a movie(:

I FORGOT TO ADD.
bintan's sky is B.E.A.UTIFUL.
>3o stars in the sky, unlike Sg.
and the beach there?
almst crystal clear. the sand also v.clean one.
i miss bintan..

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her new hse gt this system ma.
gt latest songs too lei~
shiok sia!
ate dinner thr .
yumyum!
with dessert,
my tummy was full as a balloon.
teehee =p

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As I read through the first chapters of the book,
He began to realise how engrossed I was.
Unaware of my surroundings of which he was dozing off,
I flipped page after page of it.

Reading through several chapters,
It dawned upon me that if I didn’t leave soon,
I was going to be late.

He was sound asleep like a baby when I lightly nudged his left shoulder.
Being too tired to move, he only smiled at me and soon fell back into deep sleep.

Earlier on during dinner,
He promised to accompany me to top up my ezlink card and wait for my bus home.
I wanted him to wake up to keep to his promise
But a part of me felt evil to deprive him from his little sleep.

should I really wake him up?
maybe if I wasn't so engrossed in the book,
I could have kept him awake.
Remembering times when I badly needed a nap and he didn't disturb me.

I left alone unwillingly but with appreciation of my unselfish act
and headed to the nearest 7-11.
Queued for a while but the cashier informed me that
the machine was unavailable at the petrol station.

Regret filled my heart,
Anger rushed through my mind.
Why didn’t I wake him up?
Am I to walk alone to the next 7-11 at this time?
I struggled with question after question overlapping through my thoughts.
But nothing could change the fact that he was asleep at home,
that he broke his promise and that I had to go alone.

As I walked pass his house,
The urge to run up to get him down was burning.
I felt ashamed of myself for being such a stupid girl,
Why am I the gf that has to suffer in silence?
This surely wasn't the first similar incident
and definitely was not going to be the last.
In hesitation, I tried my luck, called him thrice.
Sadly, to no avail.

There was no sound except for my heels knocking on the cement floor.
Only several engines whooshed pass me.
With much perspiration, I managed to top up my ezlink card.
A new question arise,
How am I to go home from here?
I was given several options.
One
Walk back to the first bustop which felt like miles away
Two
Walk across several streets to board a long but cheap journey
Three
Walk a little further to cross only one street however it was going to cost a little more

I pondered for a long second, three seemed like the best option.
But what if the last bus had already left?
I cringed at the thought of walking all the way back to the first bustop
but still went along with the decision.

I prayed hard, so hard I almost walked pass the bustop.
the last thing i need today is the to catch the last bus.
Soon my prayers were answered.
Thanks God :)

On board the bus,
I was still arguing with myself why I should be upset with him.
There was clearly a minor reason for that.
But I knew I felt a huge heartache, pain.

I even started crafting a message to him, a warning.
Finished it, thought long and hard if it was appropriate to do so.
A sudden flashback of the recent arguement came
and the message was saved as a draft.

To get myself out of those thoughts that I was fighting with,
I continued reading the book.
Again, I was reeled into the world of it.
The bus journey was exceptionally fast.
I swore I could sit through all the way to orchard if I dared to.

I wanted to accept the dare so badly.
But knowing how chicken I was,
I alighted diligently, afraid that if I really travelled to orchard,
it would take another 2 hours long fro and back and
I wouldn't be able to get up in time for mass tomorrow.




inspired by the four bestsellers author, Stephenie Meyer.
any comments welcomed.



he texted me just a while ago,
informing me he was heading out with his bros late into the night.
I wished I hadn't bothered about being unselfish.

Labels: darling❤, pain

with whoever wants to watch it with me.
beloves? darling? jvs classmates? ok.
just text me.
im free after 19thmarch,
when i get bk frm bintan.
=)
if y'all plan to watch any earlier,
i do hope to get a text msg b4 hand.
at least i would know i was not forgotten.

Labels: movie, NP

Labels: bloghopping

anyways,

happy 13th m.anni dar.

Labels: darling❤, m.anni

twinny loves you!

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past few days were raining...

NOT TODAY.


daisyd. ❤ d.darkling.
nvr forget this...

Labels: darling❤, quotes

1. thankiew lihui for staying awake to have a heart2heart talk,
   it helped me sleep better after that.
2. thankiew marilou for keeping me company on monday,
   it helped me pass the day better.
3. thankiew twinny for meeting me today to celeb our birthdays,
   it made me look forward to the day 0303.

Labels: darling❤, pain, quotes

Labels: darling❤, pain, quotes

Labels: darling❤, pain, quotes

i realised no matter what,
i'll always feel alone.
not even God can change that.

Labels: pain

its nt tht i dnt wna forget.
its just hard to do so.

UNLOVE YOU - ASHLEY TISDALE
I fell in a perfect way
Never had a choice to make
Crashed into your tidal wave
I didn't even struggle

Sailed right through your atmosphere
Closed my eyes and landed here
Didn't see the trouble
And I didn't care

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I try
I'll never turn my back on
Someone who loved me, too
I can do almost anything I have to

But this one thing, I cannot change
I almost kind of li